kel’s little tots

Just got back, watching the pirate of the carribean. Wasn’t too bad a show..but as usual there will be sequel.. darn!! Anyway got to met most of my ex colleagues! =) nice…

It wasn’t too late so took a bus home (plus the fact tat i should do my best not to spend the extra $ on cab). But i enjoyed taking bus ride home late at nite alone. later the better. enjoying the quiteness, the lights on the  streets, the coolness. it spelt ‘P.e.a.c.e’. Night is where most people step away from their busy schedule, take a step back and rest. The quietness is just Priceless.

I also enjoyed walking back home by myself. Enjoyed the fact that the weather is cool, the slight breeze, quietness, no people or few people around. Walking through the path way, hearing just my foot steps. Walking, emerging myself in the environment. In my heart, Bliss. Thankful for the everyday. Thankful for the people around me.  love.

These moments alone allows me to reflect, review, reminisce & relook at the good and bad times and definately look forward to the Blessed time ahead!

of cos… it would be nice and sweet, to to be with your loved one, hand in hand, enjoying the bus ride and the quiteness, walking home together with no words utter for that moment. Just enjoy the love, the quiteness and the peace. Then love will surround the whole atmosphere.

Went down to JW yesterday & today. Enjoyed the journey there. Been sometimes since i travelled back to JW. Years i presume.. Walking through the familiar route, looking out for shops / stalls that i used to patronize. Nice feeling.. =) The CC Mac which i used to study at. The cute basket ball guy i used to keep a look out in the midst of my revision. YA! he’s really cute!!And i really did study K! My maths grades really improved. Thanks to a great friend whom we revised together.

Nice.

To break free..

Moisturizer attack…. from head  to toe.

Let’s starts from the head: hair Moisturizer   $36

Face: Face & eye moisturizer   $40

Body: body moisturizer  $30

Hand: hand Moisturizer  $15

Finger Nails: finger Nails moisturizer  $50

Feet: feet moisturizer  $15

Woh!! Victim of Vanity & Marketing!

I was adviced not to be idealistic. Frankly i don’t see why not? I feel we need to uphold firmly to our own belief. And should not conform to the world or standard if possible.

I just surf online to find out more about idealism and realise (i pick up some which i felt pretty valid);

Idealism is the:

Holding on to a set of beliefs which are a rigid system of the way life is "supposed to be" or "should be".

Set of norms against which you judge others and which gets you into trouble with the others, especially if they are authority figures who don’t meet the "norm.”

hmm…yeap this is how i feel. My brother has been telling me that i have the tendency to "judge" people based on my own standard. Oh well…………….. tats why sometimes people frustrate me!

Anyway…….. lost for words and thoughts…

……………………. Took a 5 hour coach ride to KL for work….. (It not the "glam" biz trip if you are thinking about that!!) Not a very comfortable ride even most said it should be.. Oh well…

Didn’t have a good nite sleep because some inconsiderate women LAUFF so LOUDLY through out the nite… By the time we realized its already 3am in the morning. Woke up at 6am.. And the day was kick off… It was a good event. The delgates were nice and friendly. Colleagues were great! But i felt so ..woh……………….. So operation………… So coolie!! I juz snap off! At the moment i was like why am i here… DARn!!

Nvmd….. We are require to carry 16.5kg plastic bags back to sg office…IT DAmn F………heavy with all our own baggage.. Sick. Now i felt like a courier woman… At least courier services was paid………. Well.. we  took flight back..hmm….. coach will be my choice without the excess baggages…

My whole body felt so tired.. arms & legs……….. Stand most of the day. And move TONS OF BOOKS! IT felt like 3 days in KL instead of 1…

SPARE ME……………

Just some thoughts.. maybe alot of thoughts been on my mind..

Growing up..or should i say growing old is pretty irritating. Perhaps i wanna be in a denial mode that hey i am a grown up / adult! I have hit quarter of a century! But it doesnt matter cos i don’t behave my age. I wish my thoughts are not my age too…… BUT i am fussing over alot of things because i need to at this current age! Especially in Career………I need a career not just a job.

Darn! I kinda "force" myself to grow up. lost quite alot of myself since i started working. Getting irritated much easier, what is patience? Where’s the carefree thoughts? I lost it all!! I used to think blue skies, fluffy clouds, yeah rainbow…………chocolates, candie, babies grinz will make my day. They still do … but it lost that impact. I long for more! Yucks! And Yes! the "princess" want- to-be thoughts- the princess where everyone dots upon. And i remember i have this thought - This "princess"  do not long for a prince but a village boy… humble and down to earth. He will be a prince to her and she will be a princess to him…

The real & original me is hidden deep within myself. I want her back! BUT She won’t survive in this world. =) Not that i will currently….

And i realised i am very much self absorb in Me, Myself and I. The attitude of I don’t care as long as i like it & is happy. Maybe it is a false front or juz a protective shield or i have learnt to care and love myself more. Plus i can pretty much take care of myself. (But i still need my parents & brother & my mighty God of course!) hiak

1 thing have not change, i am still very much a cry baby! muahhhah Sick! I hate it when i cry… i meant i don’t want to at times but the tears just kept flowing. But that usually happen when i am sad…or super angry. I am usually the bubbly, smilely (i think) but once i flare means i am really displeased, agitated, irritated, frustrated and angry! I am not a sore loser lor………everytime i cried i feel tat wayz! I CANT control my tears la..

Although been through 26 years of life, there are lots of things i still can not comprehend nor understand. Our mind are finite. 

Trust - Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.

Integrity - Steadfast adherence to a strict moral or ethical code.

Wonder if trust exisit in this World. "I trust that you will do well" "Trust me la.."  We make those statements but what is the level of truth & trust? Or Is there any trust in the 1st place? I guess, as people get caught up in life, the level of trust between individual diminish…Perhaps there isnt a need for it.

What about moral / ethical code? Do we need to do away with that to do well in life? Should we go against our moral values to achieve what we desire? Hurt someone in the process perhaps, destroy the minimal trust that was established?

What provoke those thoughts? I leave it as it is for now. And I will lay my trust in God.

Yeap! It is gona be a brand new year! 2006 will be super Blessed with lotsa favor.. Cos I am the Beloved of God! *wink*

Juz got back from Taipei on the 2nd jan. The trip was good. Tiring, slightly sick then but it was fun and truly enjoyable. Thank God for a good travel companion cum colleague. We were such discipline traveller that we will do as much as we can while we are there. We wake up on time to make sure every min is well spent. On top of that, our extended 2 days we bunk in together with some of our colleagues… Imagine 7 in a room but it was still comfy enough.. Best part, ALL of us have BED to sleep on! Indeed a Blessing…. I love Holidays! Gotta save up and travel more!!

Havent got the time / energy to think about new year resolution… Still yet to recover from my cough…. and now FLU! Argh!! But all i know, this year will be a Super Blessed year! Will want to do so much more in my personal life. Achieve more, learn more things.. all through Christ.

Let 2006 be a good year for all my loved ones. Love them ALL.

2nd Dec

I have step into Quarter of the Century!! Gotta to some much more!! To make my life more meaningful!

Anyway I didnt know i will be so afraid of kitten……

Was just about to step out of my home to head out.. I opened the door.. saw that kitten. It wanted to barge it. I was like!! Argh!! Someone save me please! Plus i am Late to meet Jessy! Felt so irritated. I quickly slammed the door but it is still waiting patiently outside. I kick the door a few time, just to scare it away.. but it is still very persistent. I open the door slightly to peep a few times, everytime when the door opened, it will run towards the door! gUESS what it really ran in! I scream like MAD!! Until the owner heard, ran up .. asked if there’s a cat here!! I WAS REALLY PETRIFIED!

I never knew, i be such a scary cat. Perhaps because it wanted to barge into my home i felt intimidated! Imagine by a kitten..

Then met Jess for lunch.. together with Juzer! He’s so adorable. Its amazing, the birth of new life, process of growing up.. My 1st attempt in pushing the pram.. As usual, like my driving skill.. not very smooth huh.. haha It is not easy to bring the child out shopping by yourself. You need to carry a bag, the baby pram and of course the child. Be it travelling by bus, train or cab. But Jess did it, so did most mothers. It is really admirable how motherhood can build up one person. Love for the child and family, patience, selfless acts..

Then i went for hair cut after that… Was chatting with the hair dresser.. Was sharing about her work. Then realised that she gotta work 6 days a week, 10 hrs per day excluding ot. then it striked me tat, hey i have to be thankful what i have currently. However at times the work hours still …….. No COMPLaints…..

3rd Dec

Slept Tons! Sleeping is indeed my hobby but frankly it is a waste of time!! Gotta do something about it!! Yucks!

Then head out for the nite.. Went clubbing with my favorite friends….. *wink* Love u gals man!! aLL i will say it an unforgettable nite. hemm… =))

4th Dec

Siva’s Wedding!! Just 2 weeks ago, i attended a Malay Wedding. And today an Indian Wedding! So nice to be able to play witness to such a joyous occassion. Learning about different culture. Most importantly witnessing LOVE!

Another stage of life, another role people play..growing old together. Building each other up, strenghtening each other. Walking hand in hand, side by side. Being there. Going through good and bad times together. Learning to love each other more each and everyday. 

Just so pleasant ya.. Its a BLISSFUL week.