Me Myself & I
Just some thoughts.. maybe alot of thoughts been on my mind..
Growing up..or should i say growing old is pretty irritating. Perhaps i wanna be in a denial mode that hey i am a grown up / adult! I have hit quarter of a century! But it doesnt matter cos i don’t behave my age. I wish my thoughts are not my age too…… BUT i am fussing over alot of things because i need to at this current age! Especially in Career………I need a career not just a job.
Darn! I kinda "force" myself to grow up. lost quite alot of myself since i started working. Getting irritated much easier, what is patience? Where’s the carefree thoughts? I lost it all!! I used to think blue skies, fluffy clouds, yeah rainbow…………chocolates, candie, babies grinz will make my day. They still do … but it lost that impact. I long for more! Yucks! And Yes! the "princess" want- to-be thoughts- the princess where everyone dots upon. And i remember i have this thought - This "princess" do not long for a prince but a village boy… humble and down to earth. He will be a prince to her and she will be a princess to him…
The real & original me is hidden deep within myself. I want her back! BUT She won’t survive in this world. =) Not that i will currently….
And i realised i am very much self absorb in Me, Myself and I. The attitude of I don’t care as long as i like it & is happy. Maybe it is a false front or juz a protective shield or i have learnt to care and love myself more. Plus i can pretty much take care of myself. (But i still need my parents & brother & my mighty God of course!) hiak
1 thing have not change, i am still very much a cry baby! muahhhah Sick! I hate it when i cry… i meant i don’t want to at times but the tears just kept flowing. But that usually happen when i am sad…or super angry. I am usually the bubbly, smilely (i think) but once i flare means i am really displeased, agitated, irritated, frustrated and angry! I am not a sore loser lor………everytime i cried i feel tat wayz! I CANT control my tears la..
Although been through 26 years of life, there are lots of things i still can not comprehend nor understand. Our mind are finite.
